Post by Dave Dangerously on May 21, 2008 21:49:22 GMT -6
Oh yeah, and in other news, I'm going on a permanent leave of absence from writing EWA Onslaught. It may not seem like the most opportune time to just high tail and quit from booking here in EWA, but me being a booker accomplished about as much as the Middle East peace talks, in a metaphorical sense. I just want to go on the record in order to explain just why I'm leaving, and just where I'm going, so that no one questions my decision, or second gueses my seriousness.
The only reason I came back to booking was because I was bored. The only reason I came back to being interested in eFed in general was just due to boredom. And after I got myself mixed in with some controversy, I decided it was time to just come back and be active around here again. So, I started chipping in with matches for Onslaught, and Massive, and even the last PPV, Bloodlust. Eventually, Dan Hampton was enough of a bitch not to write Onslaught anymore, and I ended up picking it up. For the next couple of weeks, I wrote Onslaught more consistently then what had been seen recently, and I was enjoying writing the show.
Well, it seemed as if I was the only one interested in Onslaught. After all, the way I saw it, the only people who would RP after Onslaught were Amarantha and Carter Wilson......and oh yeah, I forgot to tell everyone, Carter Wilson=Me, Me=Carter Wilson. And I'm not saying there were other people, but it seemed like overall Onslaught was neglected as being even in the EWA rotation. I felt disrespected, because I did actually attempt to write a good show, I don't know if it was any good or not, but at least I tried. It seemed to me that no one was interested in Role Playing after my shows.
How, you may ask, did I come to this conclusion? Well, two weeks ago I was gone from Thursday night up until late Sunday afternoon. I was under the impression that Onslaught would either be PPD or picked up by the booking team. Onslaught was in fact written by Hoya, which I have/had no problem, understand, NO PROBLEM with.
The thing I did have a problem with was afterwards. I saw that all of a sudden, everyone and their fucking brother is writing RPs. It seems to me like more people are inspired by a Hoyakillah or a Healius show then they are by one of my shows. And, that's perfectly fine. AS I SAID BEFORE, I don't have a problem with Hoya, and definitely not with Healius. But obviously, I have a problem, and it's with someone, otherwise I wouldn't be writing this post, and would be getting ready for this week's Onslaught.
I guess my problem isn't with anyone in particular, or anyone worth mentioning. It's just me seeing where I'm not wanted and or needed, since there are a handful of people who if they were asked could step in and write matches or shows. Apparently, EWA isn't the place for me. No, I didn't have an argument with Healius or anything. No, Hoya's quitting didn't put me over the edge. No, I'm not leaving to go join the ICW booking team and spit in the electronic face of everyone involved in EWA.
It came down to what I wanted to do that was fun for me, and would be something people were interested in. To me, right now that is my RPing. If you want, go to the Archives and read some of Carter Wilson's old posts. That, in case you already forgot, was me. I wanted to come back to eFed without anyone knowing, so I used Carter Wilson, the supposed "cousin" of Dan CantSayHisNameCuzHe'sBannedAndFilteredFarrell. Dan Wfarrell and I came up with the idea, and I just joined up and started Role Playing. It is your judgment if I'm making the right decision to quit EWA booking, and RP.
I won't be RPing here, in EWA, though. As far as Carter Wilson goes, well his days are over, I guess, unless I want to make another comeback in EWA. I'm going to focus on Role Playing in the only place I can, the ICW. Now I know what you are thinking, since ICW's reputation proceeds it:
"Just another goon who wants to go and be childish in ICW."
Well, if you ask me, ICW isn't childish because of ScottiePP7 ripping into Hoya, or Dave Dudley mocking Kallista every chance he gets. I don't think ICW is childish at all, it's just someplace different. And it's the only place right now where I can RP. So, if you want, you can just check my work out for yourself, and feel free to tell me if it is worth it or not: ICW, Go To The RP forum if you want to read my latest works.
So, I guess that is it for me. If you want to be angry at me, be dissapointed, beg me to come back, all that goofy shit, please feel free to do it. But, don't bother IMing me or posting here about it, because frankly, I don't care, and neither does anyone else. Just remember, I quit for a good reason: because I wasn't having fun. Not like I quit because no one liked me or anything, although I did say that I was underappreciated, which I was.
Damn, who am I kidding, I'm just a walking contradiction. Before I end, I would like to just thank some people for their kind or unkind words to me:
The old people from LWN. The likes of Myst, Healius, Hoyakillah, Kallista, Mr. PPV, Archangel, Jose Ramirez, Omega X, Kayfabe, Rocky, Amarantha, Hexane, Sky, etc. No matter how hard it may be to accept, I was a prominent booker in LWN for a good period of time. I was also someone that RPed there for a while, even though I wasn't as good as I could have been. I was the World Champion. I wouldn't have had the chance to write in EWA if it wasn't for LWN. Still, I know most of you weren't fully capable of accepting my style now or then, and that is fine. I did come up from the LWN, I started there, and was a lurker long ago. Before Healius, actually. So I just extend my thanks for being around to at least read what I wrote.
I eliminated pretty much everyone. I'd like to thank Dan @#%$ for being an absolute fucking idiot who thinks he is superior to everyone and that anything he doesn't like shouldn't be liked by anyone.
I'd like to thank Dave Dudley for not ruling........but for RULING.
I'd like to thank Scottie PP7 for not hitting on my mom, and also for giving me a chance in ICW.
I'd also like to thank the Academy. Man, they are fucking awesome.
So that is pretty much it. Just for the record, I don't hate Healius or Hoya. I do not hold it against EWA people for not showing any interest in Onslaught, I just wish I could have maybe done things differently. I also wish I would have tried to get involved in things a bit more, which is something I didn't mention becuase it's not a board matter.
With all this said, the only reaction anyone is going to have to this is going to be calling me a baby, and calling me the jaded eFed icon whatever that means, or saying I'm bitter whatever that means. My goal in the whole eFed thing is to have fun. It's not fun here for me. It's just that simple. It's no one's fault but my own, and I don't want to listen to everyone's bitching, so I'm just closin this thread now, so no one can reply.
I will still be around posting, you know. Not like I'm totally leaving EWA, only on the eFed side of things. I'm going to become the community dweller. Like.....Dan @#%$, only not as gay. Loser. Too bad no one can see his name, maybe I'm REALLY talking about Dan Hampton. Or Dan Downtown. Or uh.....Dan from Hoboken.
The only reason I came back to booking was because I was bored. The only reason I came back to being interested in eFed in general was just due to boredom. And after I got myself mixed in with some controversy, I decided it was time to just come back and be active around here again. So, I started chipping in with matches for Onslaught, and Massive, and even the last PPV, Bloodlust. Eventually, Dan Hampton was enough of a bitch not to write Onslaught anymore, and I ended up picking it up. For the next couple of weeks, I wrote Onslaught more consistently then what had been seen recently, and I was enjoying writing the show.
Well, it seemed as if I was the only one interested in Onslaught. After all, the way I saw it, the only people who would RP after Onslaught were Amarantha and Carter Wilson......and oh yeah, I forgot to tell everyone, Carter Wilson=Me, Me=Carter Wilson. And I'm not saying there were other people, but it seemed like overall Onslaught was neglected as being even in the EWA rotation. I felt disrespected, because I did actually attempt to write a good show, I don't know if it was any good or not, but at least I tried. It seemed to me that no one was interested in Role Playing after my shows.
How, you may ask, did I come to this conclusion? Well, two weeks ago I was gone from Thursday night up until late Sunday afternoon. I was under the impression that Onslaught would either be PPD or picked up by the booking team. Onslaught was in fact written by Hoya, which I have/had no problem, understand, NO PROBLEM with.
The thing I did have a problem with was afterwards. I saw that all of a sudden, everyone and their fucking brother is writing RPs. It seems to me like more people are inspired by a Hoyakillah or a Healius show then they are by one of my shows. And, that's perfectly fine. AS I SAID BEFORE, I don't have a problem with Hoya, and definitely not with Healius. But obviously, I have a problem, and it's with someone, otherwise I wouldn't be writing this post, and would be getting ready for this week's Onslaught.
I guess my problem isn't with anyone in particular, or anyone worth mentioning. It's just me seeing where I'm not wanted and or needed, since there are a handful of people who if they were asked could step in and write matches or shows. Apparently, EWA isn't the place for me. No, I didn't have an argument with Healius or anything. No, Hoya's quitting didn't put me over the edge. No, I'm not leaving to go join the ICW booking team and spit in the electronic face of everyone involved in EWA.
It came down to what I wanted to do that was fun for me, and would be something people were interested in. To me, right now that is my RPing. If you want, go to the Archives and read some of Carter Wilson's old posts. That, in case you already forgot, was me. I wanted to come back to eFed without anyone knowing, so I used Carter Wilson, the supposed "cousin" of Dan CantSayHisNameCuzHe'sBannedAndFilteredFarrell. Dan Wfarrell and I came up with the idea, and I just joined up and started Role Playing. It is your judgment if I'm making the right decision to quit EWA booking, and RP.
I won't be RPing here, in EWA, though. As far as Carter Wilson goes, well his days are over, I guess, unless I want to make another comeback in EWA. I'm going to focus on Role Playing in the only place I can, the ICW. Now I know what you are thinking, since ICW's reputation proceeds it:
"Just another goon who wants to go and be childish in ICW."
Well, if you ask me, ICW isn't childish because of ScottiePP7 ripping into Hoya, or Dave Dudley mocking Kallista every chance he gets. I don't think ICW is childish at all, it's just someplace different. And it's the only place right now where I can RP. So, if you want, you can just check my work out for yourself, and feel free to tell me if it is worth it or not: ICW, Go To The RP forum if you want to read my latest works.
So, I guess that is it for me. If you want to be angry at me, be dissapointed, beg me to come back, all that goofy shit, please feel free to do it. But, don't bother IMing me or posting here about it, because frankly, I don't care, and neither does anyone else. Just remember, I quit for a good reason: because I wasn't having fun. Not like I quit because no one liked me or anything, although I did say that I was underappreciated, which I was.
Damn, who am I kidding, I'm just a walking contradiction. Before I end, I would like to just thank some people for their kind or unkind words to me:
The old people from LWN. The likes of Myst, Healius, Hoyakillah, Kallista, Mr. PPV, Archangel, Jose Ramirez, Omega X, Kayfabe, Rocky, Amarantha, Hexane, Sky, etc. No matter how hard it may be to accept, I was a prominent booker in LWN for a good period of time. I was also someone that RPed there for a while, even though I wasn't as good as I could have been. I was the World Champion. I wouldn't have had the chance to write in EWA if it wasn't for LWN. Still, I know most of you weren't fully capable of accepting my style now or then, and that is fine. I did come up from the LWN, I started there, and was a lurker long ago. Before Healius, actually. So I just extend my thanks for being around to at least read what I wrote.
I eliminated pretty much everyone. I'd like to thank Dan @#%$ for being an absolute fucking idiot who thinks he is superior to everyone and that anything he doesn't like shouldn't be liked by anyone.
I'd like to thank Dave Dudley for not ruling........but for RULING.
I'd like to thank Scottie PP7 for not hitting on my mom, and also for giving me a chance in ICW.
I'd also like to thank the Academy. Man, they are fucking awesome.
So that is pretty much it. Just for the record, I don't hate Healius or Hoya. I do not hold it against EWA people for not showing any interest in Onslaught, I just wish I could have maybe done things differently. I also wish I would have tried to get involved in things a bit more, which is something I didn't mention becuase it's not a board matter.
With all this said, the only reaction anyone is going to have to this is going to be calling me a baby, and calling me the jaded eFed icon whatever that means, or saying I'm bitter whatever that means. My goal in the whole eFed thing is to have fun. It's not fun here for me. It's just that simple. It's no one's fault but my own, and I don't want to listen to everyone's bitching, so I'm just closin this thread now, so no one can reply.
I will still be around posting, you know. Not like I'm totally leaving EWA, only on the eFed side of things. I'm going to become the community dweller. Like.....Dan @#%$, only not as gay. Loser. Too bad no one can see his name, maybe I'm REALLY talking about Dan Hampton. Or Dan Downtown. Or uh.....Dan from Hoboken.